perfection

salam

somebody very dear to me read my blog and told me how i am.... 'kinda perfect'
i was taken aback for some minute there
how could someone said i am such?

i am perfect, in lying to get out of something
i am perfect, in pretending to be so outragesly incredible
i am merely perfect, in making people think i am perfect
i am perfect in last minute study and frustrated when things i memorize i dun answer
i am perfectly fit for unhealthy diet ads
i am perfect for making my mum suffer to provide me money i asked from her every month
i am perfect in making myself look good from the outside
i am perfect for something, or maybe nothing, and maybe not many things.

perfection is merely sumting i dun see myself in
but thanks for noticing, dear.
i am happy, perfectly, if anyone ever wanted me as a friend :)

i noe no one's perfect
but not being perfect is never an excuse for doing wrong
be careful with your actions

p/s nobody's perfect. (lame saying huh? but still it's a powerful quote)

KAGUM

salam.
mahu tayang gambar-gambar KAGUM 2009 yang sedikit dan sudah lapuk.
yang pasti aku enjoy :)

kadang-kadang terlupa

salam
semalam aku rasa sedih bodoh dan bengong
perasaan paling down dalam hidup aku
soalan yang aku hafal macam nak mati
aku tak jawab
aku tinggal kosong

sometimes i see that life is perfectly laid out for me,
but why am i not happy?

kenapa kene jadi dekat exam last aku?
:(
menangis dan menangis lagi
tanpa henti

syit :(

tuhan, tolong sabarkan hati ini

the last exam

this picture was taken by Muhammad after our final, final exam. we have been waiting for this moment for six rough and fun years. and this is it. the time has come for us to say goodbye.

kilan

terkilan sebab:

1. tak dapat tengok teater air con kat KLPAC
2. tak dapat saksikan anna raffali,wani ardy dan fynn jamal di malam 3 venus nanti
3. tak dapat bersama family tersayang lama-lama.bulan 6 dah posting
4. semua di atas

aku berehat dari blogging seketika. ini peperiksaan terakhir kami. peluang terakhir untuk buktikan bakat menghafal dan belajar. lepas ni dah tak ada periksa dah.tak best,kan?

aku pempuan, so what?

salam



semalam, group aku buat rutin yang kami praktik sejak 6 taun pengijazahan iaitu study group. dah lama tak study otak pun cam peti ais je.

well, aku pun bukak cerita pasal bola. yelah, pasal champion's league la kot.

"huhu. bayern kalah"

then tetibe ade sorang member aku (jejaka) jawab.

"hang minat bayern sebab mat zaini minat la tuh"



aku: mana pulak.aku cakap je bayern kalah.dah aku ak cakap.biarla

si polan:aku takbleh accept kalo pempuan cakap pasal bola.pastu minat man u.

aku: so? memang aku minat Man U.dr dajah 3 aku kenal Man U. aku tau sapa eric cantona. aku ada topi blackburn rovers yg dulu agak best kat EPL. so,apa masalahnya kalau aku cakap pasal bola?

si polan: aku rasa pempuan minat bola bukan sebab betul-betul pun..





maka kami pun bertekak.



malam tu aku terus telefon mat zaini tanya dia apa dia rasa kalau ai cakap pasal bola.

mat zaini kata"kagum ja.kalau pempuan lagi tau dari ai lagi ai kagum".

aku: yu cakap macam tu sebab ai awek yu.ok la,kalau kawan pempuan yu?

mat zaini: sama ja perasaan ai.



nah, si polan. mat zaini orang belajar engineering pun mengamalkan "open-mindedness". si polan belajar TESL 6 tahun masih belum accept perempuan 'ber-bola sepak'. wth? huhu. kataTESL tu terbuka, menerima dan rasional.apakah? generalisasi itu membunuh kan? jadi jangan ingat orang sains tu takda human touch dan orang TESL macam kita ni jangan perasan kita hebat sangat dengan 'keterbukaan' dan 'human touch' kita. jangan kolot!



wahai lelaki. perkara tentang bola sepak ini kamu harus ambil perhatian.

1. tak semua gadis minat bola untuk tarik perhatian jejaka. kami ada 'pride'

2. jangan ingat kam cukup terer untuk 'look down' pada gadis bila bercakap tentang bola

3. tak ada peraturan jantina dalam minat,suka dan main bola.

4. salah sorang pengadil bolasepak dunia ialah perempuan. she's the women's best player.

5. minat bola bukan minat mulut semata-mata.kami pun reti baca suratkhabar dan majalah,ok?

6. tak salah kami minat bola sebab ikhlas.

7. jatuhkah saham kamu kalau kami minat bola?



oh ya,aku lupa.golongan seperti si polan ada sejenis penyakit.sindrom ego tahap tinggi.



maaflah,ai ingat penyakit tu dah out-of-date dalam zaman globalisasi

so aku nak ujarkan, kepada mereka yang ada pikiran macam si polan

jangan jadi sempit, ok?

silalah bagi peluang pada kami,baik?

p/s aku tau mesti ada orang nak kata kita orang tak payah nak minat bola macam laki. ntahla. aku punya badan, aku punya suka ar. ada kaco idup korang kalo aku minat bola? kalau korang jadi depress sebab pempuan minat bola, kami memang hebat lah :P

my 100th post

Salam

what can i say,

it's good to be home.



this is my 100th post.
there are so many incomplete things in my life.
well, to think of it, i'm only 24.
i have more time to think about how to complete it in time.
but the best part is,
it's always good to be home.
yup
i'm 24 and i am home
still at home,
and i am still in the denying phase
because i have to leave this so comfortable-full-of-love home in 2 months time
i couldn't imagine how sad i would turn out to be
i have never been this homesick before
this is my first time to be.

i was in boarding school since form 1.
when everybody was hell crying over the public phone with their mother
i just watch.
i am not that tangled up with mama abah and siblings yet.
when i was there, i wasn't homesick

but now, i feel it, in my nerves, to the fullest extensions.
i will be homesick in the next 2 months. and i am still homesick.

i wish i could be posted right next to my housing area.
:(

well. itsokay.
enuff of homesick already. i am sick of it

anyways

how many times do i have to tell you in this blog that i have the bestest coursemates ever?
yeah hell they are

and i willl keeepp telllllliiiinnngggg :P

hehe.
one weekend it was bowling weekend.
then last week was picnic at lata bayu.
and did i mention about our addiction and obsession to ping pong?
haha
everyone is getting a grip of ping pong. kewl huh?

"akak, korang kecoh a kat tempat bowling. seronok je tengok"

haha. very malu.

and..then what?
hmm
we only have the 2 months together.
after that
we are gona be all on our own.

let's do what we want, shall we? :)

the homesick

yes. i am totally homesick. i want go home for a window shopping with mama at sogo. i wan dad to buy me yong tau fu from the night market. i want to be in my bed, not thinking of anything, wondering and wandering around. i want to be home, to have the ambience of family-ness and to be able to cook 3 pots of rice for my family. i want to smell my mama's sambal tumis freshly cooked even from my room above. i want to be able to tease my sister collabratively (with my mama) and laugh to the very bits.

i wana be home

:(

missing something/someone is so...geram. kan?

entri tak betul

kan senang kalau jadi cikgu macam telan pil
telan ja, sakit lega

kan senang kalau hidup tak payah ambil berat pasal
duit, gaji, hutang, pinjaman, sengsara, insurans, cukai

bodoh la
kalau nak senang je hidup baik mati

mati tu sedih, tapi susah lagi kalau hidup
kalau dah tak reti bersusah tu
kalau nak senang je
manja manja

memang kau nak mampus.













bodoh la entri ni.
tak betul.
aku malas pikir.
(padahal mood ok je)
haha.

buang masa la sape yang membacanya


oklah. aku nak tunjuk artwork aku dalam kelas tadi hasil daripada kebosanan.
eva cakap aku sesat amik tesl. patut amik art design or creative design. huh. aku memang sesat. orang kata aku shud amik sains sukan. tapi aku amik tesl. aku shud amik creative design tapi aku amik tesl. aku sesat ke?
hm. yang penting aku bley multitask. alah, boring la kalo boleh buat satu bende je kan?
masa masih ada, masih banyak pilihan, masih banyak peluang
selagi nyawa dikandung badan
selagi tuhan tunjukkan jalan
selagi kudrat di tangan
selagi tuhan izinkan

hmm. cikgu pelbagai guna. boleh la..