Thank you, Allah.

huih. lama sungguh tak update. sapu habuk sapu sapu mop mop. Well, orang nak cerita ni. ehem ehem. Aku, tak dapat transfer. Redha. Takde rezeki.
Tapi ada satu benda yang perlu ku syukuri, sebab Allah dah kurniakan sesuatu yang istimewa untuk aku dan suami, iaitu, orang ke-3 :) seronok! excited! takut! nervous! hmmm. Alhamdulillah. I'm 5weeks+ pregnant now. Ya Allah, sungguh besar kurniaanMu. Hubby memang excited la kan. dah siap pesan kat semorang suruh jaga aku ni sebab aku jalan kalut sangat suka nak jatuh. iyelah, aku takde depan mata dia. Tapi sekarang cuti sekolah so habiskan je masa terluang ni dengan dia. Kadang-kdang kene marah "Kamu ni, aktif sangat. Ce duk diam-diam sket". Erk, sorry, tak reti duk diam. Kengkadang lupe diri sat, hehe.
Ramai pulak kawan seangkatan yang preggie sesama. Alhamdulillah boleh share story and problems ngan diorang. to all mummy-to-be out there, jaga diri.  Banyakkan baca quran dan doa. InshaAllah Allah SWT permudahkan semuanya. amin :)

ridiculous eh? I took 5 UPT myself. Alhamdulillah la semua +ve :P

ps : Mama sayang kamu, budak kecik! :D

tired

I’m tired of being strong

Of waiting until everyone is sleep

So I can bury my head in pillows and weep.

I’m tired of soldering on

Waging all the battles

Wounded and bleeding out but fighting nonstop.

I’m tired of being weary

My soul is almost transparent

And my heart beat is almost still.

I’m tired of being tired

Fighting to be fighting

Weary from being weary

taken from : http://thecandyshoppe.wordpress.com/

:'(

tiadanya kamu

"Without You" by Chris Brown

If you had a choice
Then what would you chose to do
I could live without money
I could live without the fame
And if everyday was sunny
I could live without the rain
And if I ever went up to heaven
I would fall right back down
That life wouldn't be worth living
Because you're the one I couldn't live without

If I couldn't blink
Would I still be able to see you
I couldn't imagine
Without arms could I reach
No way could I ever hold you

I need these things
Like I need you
If you had a choice
What would you chose
I could live without money
I could live without the fame
And if everyday was sunny
I could live without the rain
And if I ever went up to heaven
I would fall right back down
That life wouldn't be worth living
Because you're the one I couldn't live without

If I couldn't dream
Would I believe that there could be a you and me
And if I couldn't sing
Would you be able to hear my melody
And know that something's wrong
And I'm afraid that you're moving on
How can I fly when you're my wings

I need these things
Like I need you
If you had a choice
What would you chose
I could live without money
I could live without the fame
And if everyday was sunny
I could live without the rain
And if I ever went up to heaven
I would fall right back down
That life wouldn't be worth living
Because you're the one I couldn't live without

You can take it all from me
And it wouldn't mean anything
Turn the whole world against me
As long as you don't leave
Its getting hard for me to sleep
Even harder for me to breathe
I'm used to life with you
Tell me what I need to do

I could live without money
I could live without the fame
And if everyday was sunny
I could live without the rain
And if I ever went up to heaven
I would fall right back down
That life wouldn't be worth living
Because you're the one I couldn't live without

I could live without money
I could live without the fame
And if everyday was sunny
I could live without the rain
And if I ever went up to heaven
I would fall right back down
That life wouldn't be worth living
Because you're the one I couldn't live without 

kekasihku yang jauh di sana

Kalau boleh entry post semua nak jiwang-jiwang macam tajuk lagu kan?
Tapi memang betul la kekasih hati aku jauh tu. Kene naik feri pulak, pastu kene naik bas or kereta 6 jam. Tak ke jauh namenya?
Kalau setiap kali Khamisnya datang kan mesti ade la yang mengusik,'balik jumpa abang ye'. Kadang-kadang jawab ye, kadang-kadang jawa 'idak'. Tapi kalau jawab yang mana satu pun mesti ade nyusul soalan lagi satu. kalau 'ye', --- 'flight pukui bape?' kalau 'idak' --' ish takkan kot...awatnye tak balik ni? abang datang sini ye?'. seronok tau rutin gitu. tiap-tiap Khamis yang best tu. Sebenarnye kalau boleh tanak datang sekolah hari Khamis. Malas nak pk jawapan pe nak bagi. Balik pun kene, tak balik lagi la kene. haha. nyorokkkkk.
Tambah pulak bila otak tengah nak lucah mula la buat lawak tak senonoh diorang tu 'Malam ni bayar bil ayaq ek?' diikuti gelak tawa geng-geng. Ustad pun sama naik. Tak kuase aku layan. Nak taknak ikut senyum gelak sekali takut nanti katanye tak leh nak melawak sikit, amboi. haha. dunia!

saja je nak kongsi cerita pasal rutin hari Khamis aku. Hari ni Ahad. Cuti ganti 1 Mesia. Esok sekolah dah. Hah? Sok sekolah? Aiseymen.....

my wish for today

(source: google)

I wish that all the children in this world is not illiterate and able to read, write, speak and also digest. It's sad when they couldn't and it's even sadder when you teach literature . whew.

two months and a day

two months and a day by adiwafi.

light simple reading.

it's about a journey of a guy during his courtship with a lady, written in simple contemporary poems. puisi jatuh cinta dan putus cinta. yes, it ended up broken instead of grace. well love's like that.

me read

 fynn jamal does it

oh and cikgu adnan does it too :)

 I got it for only RM10 including postage

contact : Adiwafi's facebook page

one thing you cannot resist

.... is memory.

especially when it is still in front of your eyes. you're just stuck.

wish you can turn back time? ridiculous. samdol.

wordless wednesday #1

picture credit : Acaii Jawe

Hijab : custom made by mum

"nobody's perfect" is a lame alibi

I sigh really hard when my students used the "nobody's perfect" quote as an excuse for them to not excel and to make mistakes. When I told them I want them to get 19 right out of 25 questions they went "nobody's perfect, teacher" or the cheeky ones "making mistakes makes us better". urrrggghh. Malas layan dah alasan macam tu. Orang cipta quotation untuk kebaikan pandai pulak diorang putar alam. Now good things have turned into excuses that people use so that they will be comfortable making flaws. The world is not the place I used to know, day by day. sadly :'(

Nobody's perfect but being imperfect is not an excuse to make mistakes. Challenge me with a more interrogating   excuse, please? Bring it on!

Ujian Hidup

taken from : Google image

Nani taktau nak cakap macam mana perasaan sekarang. being so far from him makes me cry a lot. Kami bukan weekend husband and wife ye, kami monthly or sometimes even worse, 2-3 bulan sekali baru berjimba berdua, solat jemaah sama-sama, suami betulkan bacaan Quran saya yang sangat tunggang terbalik, masak untuk dia pun saya jarang sangat :'(
Ini Ujian dari Allah yang kami terima dengan hati redha dan terbuka. Kadang-kadang ternangis, tak tahan air mata ni jatuh jugak tapi sembunyi takut suami sedih jugak. so kalau tengah melayan perasaan nangis tu memang handphone letak jauh-jauh. takut terkol suami tu, karang lagi teruk nangis nye. hoho :P
teruk kan Nani ni? tapi apa nak buat, dah berjauhan. Langkawi is an island without a bridge. I cannot just simply go back and fro ikut suka hati I. tau tak? and taking a Flight to KL every weekend? I wish. Anak tokey balak mungkin boleh.
ape pun, Nani bersyukur kepada Tuhan, atas segala nikmat yang diberikan. Nani doakan Nani dapat menghadapinya and I know life will be better, time will tell. I hope time will heal everything, and I'll be reunited with my lovely husband. Love you, b. I miss you.

away ~ off for short honeymoon

source : google

ye, saya tahu. honeymoon selepas sebulan berkahwin? late but hey, still best :P susah nak dapat cuti tau~ hihi. I am so thrillled sebab ni first time holiday dengan encik husband. kami tak pergi jauh pun. dekat-dekat je~ ape pun, doakan kami selamat sampai dan balik ye.

this is the place :) ala, mesti boleh teka kan kat mana ni? :)

thanks for reading :)

review : tudung

all 3 tudungs are my favourite :)
firstly, my akad nikah tudung. all DIY by mama. the syria inner, the awning, the beading, the lace, the outer, the veil. all mum's work. sy menumpang ke kreativiti mama. nak tempah? boleh je :)

tudung untuk resepsi juga sepenuhnya DIY by my mama :) the syria inner my mama jahit (and we sell them too), the beadings the lace, the outer chiffon the veil, all done by mama. senang dapat mama yang creative ni :)

 
cantik tak? hihi. semua ni idea from my mama. well, she got those magical hands kan.. i sangat puas hati. and, i tak pakai crown! because i  don't like crowns, i like simplicity. so tertunai hajat, because the beadings pun dah cukup menarik bagi i :)
for my groom's side, i bought a shawl from Jakel Jalan TAR 3rd floor. actually Jakel byk sgt pilihan beaded shawl. this one I cari 3 days before I bertolak ke Kedah. Kalau I tau dr awal i dah beli kat sane, hihihi :) and I bought mine for rm130. cheap enough for me. before that Milah and I went to Ariani and mak datinnn, the price? rm700 above! yang I berkenan rm1500! terbeliak biji mata sekejap. hihi. so I trus grab je yang from Jakel tu :) pilihan memang banyak :)

 

 

hihi :) that's all about my hijabs. masa bertandang ni I cakap kat my MUA taknak crown so she put the spider thingi on my head which is unique sebab dia sampai dahi :P oh yeah, the boutique for the groom's side is Berjaya Image, City Plaza Alorsetar :)
enjoy, n thnks for reading :)



p/s kalau ade sape2 nak tempah, just e-mail me at hannanika@gmail.com or pm me via fb username hanani rahman and tell me about your dream tudung and we'll try our best :)

for rent :)

salam
kat sini, Nani nak wat promosi, kpd sesiapa yang nak sewa baju pengantin, my side bride+bridegroom or just bride (sesuai juga untuk tunang) : with accessories : anak tudung syria yang sangat gorgeous with heavy beadings + tudung luar chiffon + veil + sampin + tengkolok kire satu set full la.

untuk pengantin perempuan, it's an empire cut dress, luar chiffon, giving you the slimming effect :)
size : UK16, or
blouse 46, or
tshirt XL-XXL.
tinggi Nani 165cm. tak kisah pun sebab baju pengantin mg flow sampai tanah kan.

untuk baju lelaki, dia shantung silk, bought from Bandung, Indonesia. Coat cutting baju melayu., so nak pakai sampin or not optional, terpulang. modern tanpa sampin, kalau buh sampin jadilah baju melayu :)
saiz untuk lelaki
M-L saiz. sebab cutting agak besar.
tinggi husband saya 170cm.
warna plum+maroon+pastel beige

contact me at hannanika@gmail.com if interested.
Nani takde crown sbb tanak pakai crown waktu majlis hari tuh.
baju dia camni ek
payung tu kalau nak sewa pun boleh tanya Nani :)

enjoy :)

review : hand bouquets

hai and salam :) Nani dah tukar layout blog but sume link orang dah terdelete the widgets. nemind. nanti Nani buh balik melalui blog yang Nani follow :) anyways nak review bunga tangan Nani yang awesooommmmeee habis :) I love sangat-sangat sebab semuanya ada specialty tersendiri.

Bunga Tangan Nikah
This Bunga tangan was requested by me kat MUA nikah I, kak Meera Makeover and for RM50, she did a tremendous job. kemas, lovely and besar! I suke, my mom pun suke :) sangat pas hati, bunganya pun kaler yang menarik gitu. I requested for pink, tp it was beyond my expectation :) thanks kak meera :)

Bunga Tangan reception Ampang

bunga tangan ni special sangat! It was made by BisikBisik design  dengan penuh susah payah jugak because i first customer yang mintak button hand bouquet! and sume orang sangat suka and puji sangat2 :) i pun sangat happy sebab sume orang puji. so click la kat link tu if you nak tempah button handbouquet. easy, I google contoh then send to her, dia buat siap. Reminder, cost untuk button bouquet agak tinggi ye, sebab ade button yang kene order here and there. It costed me RM100. tapi for me, it's really worth it. Dahla boleh simpan sampai bila-bila :) i suke!

Bunga tangan bertandang
this one bunga plastic, but i love the simplicity :) just plain flower, nanti i upload picture coz xde lg :) till then, adios!

review : make-ups

salam :) actually I wanted to review on my dress first but well, I couldn't find the right picture to paste here so here goes my make up review. well, this review will be updated, for another make up session for my bertandang this 9th june :)

Solemnization make-up
actually I have hired someone else for my solemnization make-up but since my date and time of akad nikah changed I have to hire orang lain. so, kesimpulannya, duit booking untuk first MUA burn. nangis. Alhamdulillah la rm100 je. kalau rm200? double nangis. so i managed to get a new MUA, last minute, online. you see, I really depend a lot online tau. Sume MUA online. haha. Good thing la FB ni. hihik. so, malas cakap panjang, Meera Makeover ni la MUA nikah I. kak meera ni kecik je orgnye. tak dapat imagine ble tgk fb dia hihi. tp dia wat keje kemas and teliti sgt. and she's patient, tak banyak cakap. a good MUA :) tengok la hasilnya :)

 pic from kak meera's fb

 pic from kak meera's fb

photos taken by my bro in law

photos taken by my bro in law

Reception (my side) make-up

I chose kak Emma from Emma Pesona (FB name : EmmaPesona Studio). this is my favorite! her make up is natural :) i memang sangat puas hati n everyone puji sgt2. kesimpulannya highly recommended! ade satu time tu kak emma tersilap buh fake eyelashes, she went ' eh, senget plak'. then she took it out, letak balik, then did her wonders. sangat selambe kan? suke tau mekap ni. sampai hari ni tak boleh lupa her touch :) pricey sikit (for me la, org lain i tak tau), tapi worth it! Alhamdulillah Nani dapat harga lama sebab booking dia awal sangat! a year before (lepas tunang terus booking). and, Nani memang taknak pakai crown segala, I nak simple je. Alhamdulillah, dia faham and mekap dia compliments everything. hihi. banyak pulak testimoni pasal kak emma ni. u ol nilai sendiri lah from my pictures :)

photo yang atas ni sume dr fb kak emma

 picture taken by my sis

picture by dayah, my ex-coursemate

any inquiries? feel free to comment :) especially for b2bs out there.

ps. next update : hand bouquets yang awesomeeeee :)

happiness is the greatest gift from God

Never say that you are not happy with what you have now. Be it, your career, your family, your friends, your spouse, your problems, you financial matters, be happy with them. I know, you'll say "easy for you to say, Nani, you just got a husband to hug at nights". But don't get me wrong, being happy is the way to get over things. When I was caught up with so many things to handle in school, I often whine, asking my colleagues "why it's always me?" until they get annoyed. A friend in school told me to just smile and do the task, be positive and think it as an obligation. I did and it felt better when I stopped whining. I just realised I whine all the time. I whine when I saw any letters in my pigeon hole (letters usually signify 'meeting' or 'talk' or 'courses'), I whine when my students asked for words, for 'A Word a Day Program', I whine when I was asked to go there or everywhere. admit it. We Malaysians whine all the time. It's our nature.

Now I learn from my husband that whining is not going to fix things. He whines a lot too. But to me only. I always reminded him this and that and he'll stop the whining. So now, I'll only whine to him. Because he's mine and he cares. He doesn't mind it and it takes time for him to get annoyed with me, in fact, he cannot be annoyed with me or I'll frown the whole day. haha. I am using my husband, for the good purpose.

so ladies and gentlemen out there. stop whining. you can do this! whenever you wanted to whine just zikir some Subhanallah Walhamdulillah, Walailahaillallah Wallahuakbar. I hope you'll feel better. I did this when I wore the inai a  night before my solemnization. Every part of my body is so itchy and no one was there to ease the itchiness so I started zikir then fell asleep :P haha.

I am happy right now. to be given the chance to be with him. Alhamdulillah. Allah has answered my prayers. we'll go through thick and thin, together, yeah b? :')

:')

sneak peak :P

~Majlis Persandingan Pengantin Perempuan, 28 May 2011~

official photos will be updated after I get them from my OP, review coming soon and more love stories to come after this. Married life is just soo fun that I had to postpone blogging for a while :P

I love my husband!

you have made a difference, miss Nani

i missed the teacher's day celebration this year, i was back in ampang while my students were here in Langkawi. Now I'm back, rocking the school (like yeah). The students were frequently asking why I wasn't in school and wishing from afar. technologies these days. sometimes it makes you happy and sometimes it's just annoying. yet, I cannot live without it.
Being a teacher is a tough job. We often get offended when people say it's the last option for some fella. But so what, that's what made it so special.
"One who cannot do, teach" is so overrated.
I admit I cannot do. teachers aren't losers.
they are angels.
they made a difference.
one child at a time.
we touch hearts.
we change lives.
we create hopes.
we put on funny jokes.
we make children smile.

happy teacher's day, miss Nani. and to all those out there. continue this lovely journey. and go on make more differences along the way :)

i have many more reasons to be with you. it's infinity :)

hai all. lagi beberapa hari Nani akan bergelar wife kepada si dia. saya rasa seronok sangat, dan rasa sangat lega kerana kami bakal disatukan, setelah hampir 4 tahun tau.. sangat pelik rasanya bertukar status ni. dalam masa kami bersama ni banyak yang telah kami lalui. suka dan duka. tak mudah semuanya. tapi diharungi dengan hati yang tabah, dan hakikatnya walau apa pun yang berlaku, kami bersama :')
doakan kebahagiaan kami ya kawan-kawan.
sesungguhnya doa kalian akan menyemarakkan ikatan perkahwinan ini :)
sayang kamu semua :D
i still can't believe i am getting married!
<3

biarkan waktu, waktu, hapus, aku...

semuanya yang pernah

yang pernah

akan menjadi parut di sebahagian hidup aku

doakan, ya? :')

hey guys :)

hello guys out there :)
everyone is invited to my wedding

28th May 2011
Dewan Ibupejabat Polis Daerah Ampang Jaya
12 noon - 330 pm

wear red will you?
and if you want my card pls gimme ur address in the comment section :)
Thanks and may Allah bless us all
:D

i'm back, without a bang.

hello. I'm back from MSSK. Tired as hell. I got diarrhea, headache and sore throat. but i'm fine. Still surviving and still standing. following my road right now. and here, i present you a sad song. sangat senang untuk mencintai orang lain sedangkan si dia menyayangi kita dengan sepenuh hatinya? dunia ni bukan sempurna. apatah lagi cinta. kepada yang terluka, pernah dicurangkan, pernah di khianati, kuatlah. ramai bersamamu :)



love kamu kamu

fact of the day

kita sahabat selamanya. walaupun kau akan lupa, walau ditelan usia, namun aku tidak akan pernah lupa, fakta yang kita pernah saling memerlukan, dan kita yang saling bertanya "awak ok?".

ya, itu suatu fakta, okey?

breathe breathe

perlukan.
ruang.
untuk.
menapeh.


;'(

let's talk style

i'm in love with this style! :)
gonna pull it soon

wear your hijab in less than 1 minute [sifarahmislina.blogspot.com] from farah khairuddin on Vimeo.


great farah. your room is so cool :P

something about love that breaks your heart

Something 'Bout Love - David Archuleta

Every night it’s all the same

You’re frozen by the phone

You wait, something’s changed

You blame yourself every day

You’d do it again

Every night

There’s something ’bout love

That breaks your heart

Whoa oh oh oh

It sets you free

There’s something ’bout love

That tears you up

Whoa oh oh oh

You still believe

When the world falls down like the rain

It’ll bring you to your knees

There’s something ’bout love that breaks your heart

Whoa oh oh oh…

But don’t give up

There’s something ’bout love

When you were young

Scared of the night

Waiting for love to come along

And make it right

Your day will come, the past is gone

So take your time

And live and let live

There’s something ’bout love

That breaks your heart

Whoa oh oh oh

It sets you free

There’s something ’bout love

That tears you up

Whoa oh oh oh

You still believe

When the world falls down like the rain

It’ll bring you to your knees

There’s something ’bout love that breaks your heart

Whoa oh oh oh…

But don’t give up

There’s something ’bout love

Don’t fight

Don’t hide

Those stars in your eyes (in your eyes)

Let em’ shine tonight

Let em’ shine tonight

Hang on

Hang in

For the ride of your life

It’s gonna be alright

Hold on tight

There’s something ’bout love

That breaks your heart

Whoa oh oh oh

There’s something ’bout love

That breaks your heart

Whoa oh oh oh

It sets you free

There’s something ’bout love

That tears you up

Whoa oh oh oh

You still believe

When the world falls down like the rain

It’ll bring you to your knees (to your knees)

There’s something ’bout love that breaks your heart

Whoa oh oh oh…

But don’t give up

There’s something ’bout love

Whoa oh oh oh..

Set’s you free

There’s something bout love

That tears you up

Whoa oh oh oh

You still believe

When the world falls down like the rain

p/s bertahanlah. sesuatu tentang cinta patahkan hati kamu? bersabarlah, hang on. akan tiba satu hari nanti kamu pasti bahagia. orang-orang yang pernah kamu cintai akan bahagia. orang-orang yang mencintai kamu akan bahagia. jangan putus harapan. percayalah kepada keindahan cinta yang diberikan Tuhan. bertahan :)

forgive and forget

translated;

"Kemaafan tidak menjanjikan sesuatu hubungan itu untuk pulih.

Sesetengah orang tidak mampu untuk mencinta, 

dan adalah wajar untuk melepaskan mereka dengan kemarahanmu. 

Doakan yang terbaik untuk mereka, 

dan biarkan mereka pergi mengikut haluan sendiri"

pergilah jauh-jauh.

yang dah berlalu itu sudahlah.

maaf, kerana aku tidak mungkin kembali seperti dulu.

bina kehidupan baru.

inshaAllah, mendung ini pasti berlalu.

maaf atas semua salah dan silap.

aku dah cakap, hidup ni satu putaran, pasti ada yang akan berubah. percayalah.

kawan tu orangnya macam mana?
dia akan tolong buatkan kerja kita bila kita sibuk.
dia akan tolong masakkan nasi untuk kita bila kita tak larat balik dari olahraga.
dia tak berkira, kalau baki duit 2-3 ringgit dia halal je.
dia tanya kita nak pesan ape bila dia keluar pekan.
dia bagitau semua benda yang dah sampai deadline.
dia message kita pasal keje yang perlu disiapkan.
dia tolong sidaikan baju kita, angkat baju kita.
dia gelak dan kongsi semua lawak dengan kita.
dia bersama kita susah dan senang, kongsi hati dengan kita. bela kita.

jangan ingat orang tu baik ketika senang-senang kamu, ketika bersama kamu, ketika gelak tawa dengan kamu, kamu dah boleh anggap dia sahabat.
tapi esoknya?..
bila masa nangis kamu, penat kamu, lelah kamu, dia lebih menyakitkan hati kamu.
padahal selama ni, semuanya bersama kamu, dibantu kamu, dipercayakan kamu dan di ambil berat tentang kamu.

sahabat tak pernah putus asa dengan sahabatnya.
dia yakin pada kamu, wahai sahabat.
dan takkan pernah pergi, walau macam mana pun kamu sakitkan hatinya.